So my aunt and uncle before they moved found it necessary to call me anorexic. which i thought was a little offending because you dont just go up to people and say heyy! you have anorexia and tell my mom to make me eat 3 pancakes. news flash assholes im bulimic. i havent been anorexic since the 8th grade. jeez. so since they gave me an anorexic talk before they left im going to bring them a little christmas present. I have 43 days to lose 25 to 30 pounds because im going to their house for christmas. so i want to be smaller and binge right infront of them so they can see just how wrong they were. no more playing around. none. im liquid fasting until i leave my moms then im just regular fasting to kick start the weight loss. another motivator is that my friend promised that whenever i want to eat she'll bring up the fact that im not good enough to eat...that i got treated like dirt for a reason. that i got raped for a reason. so theres a little christmas present to me. no more food. semi smaller body and the best part of all a scared aunt. but yesterday my mom made me eat a mcdonalds mcchicken. i felt so sick afterwards. bleckk. i cant wait to get out of this house. but this isnt ed related but i got into national honor society :D yayyyy! :) haha i was so happy when i found out. but now back to the depressing stuff. the other night i got so frustrated with my body i tried to cut off my stomach...i have cuts all over my stomach. they're sick to look at. ick. but i wanna talk more about my happy weight loss plan.
November 13-16th:fast
November 17-30th:300
December 1-3rd:fast
December 4-10th:300
December 11th:fast
December 12-17th:300
December 18-21th:fast
December 22-23rd:300
December 24th: binge infront of aunt :) yayyyy!
this is really evil but oh well. i WILL do this.
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