What came out of today:
breaking my fast after only 17 hours.
binging and purging and now binging again.
When i wake up later today im starting my latest diet. yes diet
i hate the word but it is of great importance that i lose some weight before halloween so im not an obese barbie...lately ive been feeling 100times fatter than usual. which means its time to kick it into high gear!!
On the brightside its a three day weekend! but on the not so brightside that means theres more of a chance of eating..great. but at least on tuesday when i go back to school im going to be a busy body again. Between PTSA, Soccer, School, Homework and possibly mentoring im going to have no time whatsoever in my schedule to binge! :) but watch...theres always time for a binge. :P but hopefully not.
I have absolutely no plans for this weekend...because my bitch sister wont let me go to a stateland party with her because i get to drunk so she wont let me ride with her. hmmp.! ill just have dad drive me he knows what goes on up there and he doesnt care as long as its not everynight. he even told me that. but whatever she has to be a bitch about it i know i get rowdy but this time i wasnt even gonna drink. for real. 1 because i got super sick on wednesday night when i drank and am scared to drink again after that and 2 because the guy i like is gonna be there and if i try to sleep with someone while im drunk again he'll think im a whore. and i definately dont want that! ahh! highschool drama.
Alright so i learned a valuable lesson today....do not give your number out to guys who will stalk you.
ugh i got into a huge arguement with this guy i dont even know about how i never talk to him. and i told him to lose my number so now he wont stop texting me. ughhh!!! and when i told him to stop he told me to stop being a bitch and get over it. and then he asked me what was wrong with my head?!
urgg!! excuse me but you dont know me so why are you texting me? ugh. i wish this stuff would stop happening to me. i need to be smarter if i ever give my number out again. ugh stupidmyyearbook. dont use it. fucking stalkers. this is the 3rd guy to do it.
NO MORE.
im definately getting my number changed.
ohhh! and i need help with ideas for my barbie halloween costume!!!♥
any ideas would be appreciated!
:)
Starting tomorrow:
->Under 500cals.
->Fruits and Veggies only
->low cal drinks only
Woo! here we go...wish me luck...it might only last 24 hours..
By March I wanna look like this:
But this still wont be skinny enough..
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