Happy Birthday to me..?

So its my birthday and my day really sucked.

Maybe not to an outsiders point of view but i just feel more invisible than normal.

Sure people said happy birthday to me but i dont know i just feel like a mess. i wanna eat but i really cant.  actually i just wanna go cut. but i wont do that because ive been 31 days free. But anyways first i went to get my permit. the picture sucked and i missed 3 questions on it i felt so stupid because my friends always brag about getting 100s. then my mom made me drive home from there and i almost killed us all :( i feel so stupid. then when i get to school its all happy birthdays but i just feel like complete shit. then practice it felt like everyone was trying to get at me. i got knocked down alot. and on top of it all i have so much homework to do >:[ but the icing on the cake was my best friend didnt even tell me happy birthday..she probably didnt know but it threw me off so bad i felt hated by everyone. and now im just crying while writing this. damn i must look stupid.

Im stuck in the house all night too because my dad told me i couldnt have a party and none of my friends wanted to hangout with me. so here i am alone on my birthday. my family doesnt even wanna be near me.  but i guess im not alone. i have mia.

i guess shes all ive got lately.

Theres no hope anymore.

I just wanna go to the hospital.

and have my parents find out.

Maybe then they would wanna spend time with me.

but probably not...