So i blacked out in school on monday and a whole bunch of attention was brought to me. ohh gosh it was so embarrassing. But i realized that a whole bunch of people actually cared about me. i got a bunch of people asking if i was okay several times and a bunch of hugs and people kept texting me to check up on me. It touched my heart to see that people actually do care about me. Even when i got to school today abunch of people who just heard about it we're telling me to take it easy and asking if i was okay. Even my history teacher was kinda nice to me XD i asked him to holepunch something for me cause i was being a complete lazy ass. and he did. but then he told me it was cause he didnt want me blacking out in the middle of his class. muahahah!
But because of all of this and to see the people who actually cared....i want to attemp recovery. because quite frankly im not only just hurting myself anymore. i still wanna restrict but purging is completely out of the question now. I'm going to try my very hardest! and i believe with the support of the people who care about me i can do it! :)
Wish me luck!
Hours without purge: 5♥
Soon to be days...and hopefully weeks that turn into years♥
Good luck, you can do it.
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