Wheel Day Weekend.

Well. i didnt make it all weekend fasting. but thats okay. im restarting the abc. just cause i need a clean slate.

Okay. Im not even sure what happened this weekend. I spent it with my friends but woah does it seem confusing. I know nobody wants to read this but oh well i wanna type it♥ hehee.

So on saturday i spent the day up at the fair grounds with some of my close friends and my crushh (:

and most of the time was fun but i felt like my crush and our friend didnt even wanna hang out with me. but then they were so nice to me when i told them how i felt. they were like

"Sayde we wouldnt talk to you if we didnt want to hang out with you!" 

And so i felt a little better and we spent the rest of the night in the pits and suchh. 

but then i got ditched. by everyone and was alone for probably 15 minutes :( it doesnt seem like long but when there are pedobears all over it feels like forever. So i texted my crush with "I'm lonely :(" and he came and found me so i wouldnt have to be alone. but i understand why no one wanted to hang out with me. i was probably being a brat since it was my birthday weekend...but i thought i was being nice..

Anywaysss. i HATE HATE HATE thunder and lightening and fireworks remind me of them so when the fireworks were going on my crush held his hands over my ears♥ it made me feel special. it had actually turned into a good night. but then when i met up with the rest of my friends someone threw those exploding things at me and they hit me so i stormed off pissed because i felt like my night had been a shitty one.

I ended up sitting alone at a bench at the other side of the fairgrounds.

The boys tried texting me and calling me but i wouldnt answer. then they finally found me and calmed me down and my friends called me. so i hid in the side of a music stage with the boys and we talked for 5 minutes before the boys had to go. so my crush hugged me :) and i walked them to the gate and to the car. then my friends called me asking where the hell i went and telling me to get back to them. so i did. then we walked to my house and i got drunk and i cant really remember anything else about saturday.

Sunday.

We woke up. we went back up to the fairgrounds and hungout with my friend i like to call a bodyguard. It was the three of us. then we found the two boys and then people just started to flock with us. which was cool with me because i HATE being alone. Then we all split up for a while and i got a picture with a hot country singer and hung out with some of my girly friends. yadaaa yadaaa. Later on we met up with our friends Wade and Jeremy and i got to get pictures on Jeremys tractor and we spent the rest of the night with them which was funn~ :) Jeremy kept throwing me in the mud and after he left he was texting me about how cute i am and stuff like that...but hes a player. but he called me tonight and we talked for 2 hours and then texted for another half hour after thatt. I dont even know if i like him. but woahhh! he has the same exact birthday as me! same year too!! it freaked me out! haha :D

But now im confused cause my crush was texting me earlier teasing me by calling me babe. urgg! i wish he wouldnt tease me. he doesnt know how hard this is for me. i just got him back as a friend ( we went out for over 2 years) and now im falling for him again. i know im only 15 but damn. this feeling suckksss!  and other guys keep blowing up my phone and i just want to talk to him. but they wont understand thatt.

Sooo in other news i still havent gotten my period and im f*ckin scared. cause i could be prego. or it could be emotional stress or illness cause ive been sick but im so damn scared i just want my period back that would be the best birthday present ever!!! 

Okay. enough of that.
Day one of the ABC:500

Wooo! wish me luckk!!
Jeremy's Tractor :D