Bra Shopping.

So.

i officially hate my boobs.

a hundred times more than before.

Before i lost all the weight i was a 42DD

and i THOUGHT i was a 38D

Apparently not.

The first lady who measured me told me i was a 32DD.

That size doesnt exist.

Then the next girl who measured me told me i was a 36DD.

ugh! As soon as i was told i was still a DD i cried.

i was so frustrated. i lost 50 pounds.

How in the Hell am i still a DD?!

ugh :( so shopping was terrible.

Then to make things worse when i was telling my asshole (boyfriend) about it he mocked me.

so looks like hes getting the sighlent treatment again. especially for his rude little comments. he made me cry on the phone again.

And then i watched Degrassi.

Some Katie girl on there is bulimic and it triggered me so bad.

so i ended up binging and purging again. :(

My poor throat.

Dear Throat,

I'm sorry i abuse you everyday.

i really dont mean it anymore.

it just happens.

and i hope in the future we can be friends again♥

Love,

Me

But thank god my brother is a jerk. when i was eating he immediately called me a fatass and a porker and told me to stop eating because i was fat enough.

i hate when hes right -_-

Time to get some sleep i guess.

<3Saydeee