So i was home alone today so i decided to go to the town park and meet my Ex boyfriend just to hangout. Oh giddy god. -_-
BAD CHOICE.
bad bad bad bad bad.
Hanging out turned into making out among other things...he thinks we're getting back together.
It all started with us watching the clouds laughing about what the other one saw.
then he leaned over and kissed me. and i did what any self respecting girl would do...i kissed back.
Now thinking about it..it was stupid. i was STUPID.
See the reason we broke up was that he'd always flirt with everyone.
absolutely everyone.
and it made me feel like shit.
and that he said things like "oh your the biggest girl i've ever dated." how rude.
those and the rest of his imperfections split us up after 9 months of his complete bullshit.
but now that he thinks there is a chance for us im screwed.
My closest friend told me that he was one of the factors that played into the reasons why i had turned to bulimia for comfort.
and i believe her.
I'm just gonna have to get up the courage to tell him no.
i hope i can do it.
On another note my fast is not going well...i was doing absolutely amazing until my parents forced me to eat dinner. which i purged but thats cheating isnt it? i think so. so i will avoid food the rest of tonight and start my fast fresh tomorrow. I will complete this! even if it kills me.(i couldnt be so lucky)
I will be Skinny.
I will be Beautiful.
Just give me time.
Fast starting in: 1 hour and 34 minutes.
120 hours to go♥
<3Saydeee
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