but god damn. i caved at 18 hours.
It all started with some egg whites.
then i decided to make an omelet.
140 calories for eggs
40 for mushrooms
and 60 for some cheese.
240. ugh.
so i figured hey! some grapes wont kill you.
and then i moved to a cucumber.
That was it. but i cant keep it down.
So surprise surprise im going to purge when im done with this.
Then punish myself with helping dad with haybails and doing and hour and a half of cardio. yay!
ugh. why cant i just stay away from food.
if i could i wouldnt be such a WHALE.
I mean really im a blubbery blubbery whale.
i cant stand it.
I wish mia would quit being a bitch and let me have some more ana time.
i mean is that to much to ask?
especially since my throat is fucked.
Whatever. i hope i end up in the hospital. maybe then this stupid shit will be over.
My best friend told me she was worried and it was time for me to get some help.
but i honestly dont think im to bad. and i dont really wanna quit.
I feel bad tho cause i told her i would get help back in April. and i never did.
I'm not bad enough to need help.
Im perfectly
I'm better than fine.
I'm that Blubbery Whale.
<3Saydeee
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